I'm fuming mad right now.

Mum just deleted my whole folder of game bookmarks, accumulated from 2 years ago. 2 whole years of game links, walkthroughs, interesting game sites.

She's just taking my old laptop to use once in a while so it doesn't go rusty and because it's old of course it'll be slow. Of all things to clear to free up the memory, she chooses to meddle with my bookmarks on google chrome. It's signed in to my gmail account and that saved me lots of trouble in transferring my whole chunk of bookmarks to my new computer.

Fucking deleted my entire 'games and walkthroughs' folder as well as my 'cosplay' folder where I keep links of sales items and reference photos of my past and future characters. Only realised the error when I saw on my current laptop browser the updated bookmarks bar with her stupid google finance link. Nice arh, delete my stuff, claiming it's slowing down the comp, and add your own.

That's not the main reason why I'm angry though. I gave her the permission to delete even though I complained a lot about why she wanted to delete, of all things, my internet bookmarks -___- so in a way I can't blame her. What made me so furious and ready to burst into tears on top of my agitation was that she insisted that I was in the wrong and should have created a separate account for my new laptop.

like what the heck. I access your already logged in email account on your old computer and delete all your emails because they take up soooooooo much space. When you access your email in your new computer and see all the mails gone, will you punch yourself and lament that you should have created another email account, one for every computer you use?? She keeps insisting that I should have kept a set of bookmarks on my current laptop GOD DAMMIT too angry to argue. Should have logged out of everything when I moved on to my current laptop but darn it I wasn't expecting her to delete things. She already has her own laptop where she can personalize all she wants for all I care. Don't meddle with my old stuff!!!

I did a search to see if I could retrieve the links. The solution said to keep the browser open and not to open a new one if it was already closed. Too bad, she had closed it and I had opened it again to show her my point about my gmail being linked to the chrome browser. Goodbye my links, goodbye forever.

URGH.............................. at least she didn't start her meaningless clean up with my mp3s or game files or photos. Still, I feel like punching something so badly

Operation no contact lens

Many many people have been telling me in person that I look stressed/ tired/ have eyebags. Most of them then ask me to take better care of myself and sleep more :) I truly appreciate the concern -touched- There was just this one guy who told me rather rudely that I look as if I haven't slept for days and later took my laptop claiming that I looked like I was going to pass out. I'm like.... _l_ no thanks I didn't ask you to take my laptop bag i'm sorry my normal face looks so dead and snatched it back. Rude TTM sia :(

That aside, to these comments mostly I just play along and blame it all on FYP.

The truth is, I've been sleeping much earlier ever since I joined the lab and corrected my sleeping hours to a very healthy pattern. Sure FYP is stressful and I don't get my afternoon naps no more but I have been sleep early and I don't know why my eyes look so terrible okay :( I can't help it that I have to wake early, sleeping earlier should solve the waking early problem right??

Then I thought about it long and hard... cos the number of similar comments are really alarming and scaring me T__T it occurred to me that I've been wearing my contact lenses for more than 12 hours a day for almost every single day after starting lab in mid June. Since weekdays are all taken up by lab, my weekends are packed with activities and I have to wear contacts as well -_- so frustrating.

My eyes are very tolerant towards contact lens and I feel no discomfort wearing my normal lenses so I always keep them on the entire day even after returning home T___T I mean after years of wearing contacts without any issues I kinda ignore all the safety stuff like not wearing for more than a certain hours and so on. 

Getting to the point.. I'm going on a 'no contacts, spectacles only' phase for a least a month, started yesterday. I will have to bear with my over dramatic thick framed specs, having my specs slip down my nose, having them fogged up when I feel hot, unsightly red marks on my nose bridge, messy hair when I put on or remove them and many more problems which I'm sure to discover soon. Will also try to take some eye supplements.. 

Wordy post ahahaha ps for the lack of photos recently.. I'll just end off with a collection of my various coses since last year February!

Subaru taken by Lynweh cos, Bisca by Naruto4836 Fotoworks, Kyubei by Kyou, Felicita by Kyou, Bubbles selfie, Luka by Yz, Kagura by Kyou, Shizuo by Kyou, Aoba costest selfie (lol it doesn't belong here but mehh)

2 more coming up this year jiayou jiayou!! I've a few more plans and added them to the cosplans at the right side of the blog :)b

Thoughts on Hakuouki Demon of the Fleeting Blossom

Hunter X Hunter episodes make me feel so depressed nowadays. I'm still looking forward to a new episode every Sunday but I always clench my fists while watching because urghhh it's too upsetting X__X 

For this season I'm also watching Free!, Gin no saji, Watamote-- short for watashi ga motenai no dou kangaete mo omaera ga warui. That was a total mouthful hahaha! That's about it! Nope i'm not watching shingeki no kyojin because I've read the manga and totally lost interest in the anime as a result. Of course Uchuu kyoudai is still on my list, I watch a new episode every saturday without fail :)

Let me gush a little about Free! It's fan service for the ladies but seriously the guys are too adorable. Fan service done right :') I appreciate it very muchy.  

I've finished Hakuouki demon of the fleeting blossom on the PSP and :))))))bbb it's a good first game. A little heavy on the history and content side and less romance than I expected but oh man I had so much feels after finishing each route. Favourite guy goes to Harada because he was the most romantic but Hijikata and Okita both made me so emotional during and at the end of their routes ;__; 

Trying not to spoil too much but I had a serious case of goosebumps when the name Hakuouki was spoken in the game-- this happened in Hijikata's route. Darn it Hijikata, you made me so worried throughout 

your route. He's such a gruff person which made the scenes where he smiles and appreciates Chiziru all the more precious. KUDOS TO MIKI SHIN for putting in so much effort into voicing Hijikata LOL so gruff and growly, I tried to speak that way and ran out of breath just after 2 words lol??! Bittersweet ending. I mean they're together and all but description never fails to remind that death is approaching and may come suddenly so there's no way I can be 100% shiawase

Okita's route was the only one which made me cry, during the happy end. The tears just flowed out so naturally OwO I was surprised when I felt them on my cheeks. Welll.... great job because I wasn't super taken with Okita, pretty neutral throughout his route and I was paying more attention to Morikubo's voice and admiring how musical he sounded. Again, the end hinted strongly of the uncertain future and how they would treasure every moment of it and express their love for each other clearly. I thought Okita died when he only fell asleep T____T that was the exact intention of the game writers I tell you urgh don't play with my heart please...

Saitou was the first guy I went after and I felt that he was too indifferent and in his own world.. Quite unwilling to admit his love for Chizuru too and that kinda turned me off XD  

Harada was my second guy and well.. you know how I feel towards him XD majority of the romance in the entire game was put into his route and he was the only one who has a happy end with no looming consequences. Ohh he's also the only guy in the game who got to bed Chizuru. Nothing explicit but yeaaa it was very clearly implied XD This is the route to go for if you're aiming for more romance and a normal life in the game lol

Heisuke was normal... His voice kinda hurt my ears so I never really got into his story. Pity because I like his character design.

Kazama, who's also hanging off the side of my psp as an accessory, was so-so as well. His route was too short to be compared to the rest so yea. What I found really funny about the bad guys was that they have this routine of leaving at the slightest disturbance in the middle of the fight with your Shinsengumi guy, or claim that their mission here is done so they'll leave for today, leaving the Shinsengumi guy fuming and swearing to become stronger to defeat them in the future hahaha it became predictable after the first route. Main takeaway-- Kazama = sexy TsudaKen voice XD

So overall-- Hijikata, Harada, Okita, Saitou=Heisuke. The bgm at the start screen and the bgm for some of the happy ends (aka the major key version of the prev song) were my favourite. Rest of the music had some really strange instrumentation but still acceptable tune wise.

School starts tomorrow T_____________________________T bye bye life

Last week felt like forever, things have happened and I'm just so tired of anything that isn't anime or otome ok scratch that yep because I'm an otaku not.

I just want a break from all the girl talk lol it's making me feel like I'll never find anyone. Urghhhh

Cosplay props and costume progress aside, I just want to get my proteins mutated and start on the experiments. That's it for this week :) looking forward to seeing yz's doggie too

CCS photoshoot

Hello people~ Time seems to be flying past each day, super busy in lab and for the past week, I only got to go home close to 8pm almost everyday. It got me really upset for a period of time especially when I could not even leave before 7pm on my mother's birthday. 

Had extra stuff piled onto my own project which is already a lot to handle at this point in time. It's better now because I've learnt to say "No I can't do it today" and also someone pointed out that I was working too hard. Bless her.

Anyways I've also finally gotten rid of the extra burden which was to study for my insurance stuff. All for the few hundred bucks if I passed the exams and closed some cases. It sounded like a good deal initially because I was being paid to learn stuff but seriously guys there's no free lunch in the world, especially when it comes out of the blue from someone you don't really know. I'm free :')) can spend my nights playing my psp now..

Moving on to more happening stuff :)) Had card captor photoshoot last saturday and got to know so many people. I was a minor card with a fixed pose so it wasn't much of a challenge on my portrayal or expression, just smile and look pretty haha. 

Even for someone who doesn't know the series, I think this is simply amazing. Not the full team but the group already looks impressive. The scale of the costumes is just... wow. So many pairs of wings, so colourful!

 My tail ^_^

All photos posted here are taken by JP_Capture who is a chop chop photographer hahaha he takes photos really efficiently. Got a shock during cosfest where he was like: Ok open eyes bigger -click- not too fierce arh -click- alright done!

Was carried around like a princess twice because I couldn't walk in my tail and Liz just lifted me up before I could take it off to walk ^____^ I felt so pampered hehe OHH my dream came true--- I was carried like a sack of potatoes ahaha less unglam of course but the idea is there

The sun was crazy on that day and at the end, my shoulders were red and burnt =X trying not to think about how much darker I've become on the whole. Months of whitening and avoiding the sun only to lose it all in a single photoshoot. Haish.... 

Thanks yuhsuan for visiting!! Hahaha sorry for telling you the wrong location X_X More photos on facebook~

I'm kinda looking forward to my next few coses even though I was recruited into the teams aka these cosplays are not initiated out of my own desire :) Aoba is still on my cos list though!!! Must push myself a little to make him appear if not it's forever going to stay on my cosplans at the right side of the blog haha YZ are you still willing to be my Clear??

It's getting a little overwhelming though... I have 3 more cosplays for the rest of the year and I'm really not going to accept anymore for 2013. Mum has been nagging and scolding me regarding cosplay more than usual as well... It increases linearly with the frequency of my cosplays and there's no helping it because second half of the year is the event hot period.. Well at least she still allows me to do what I want ahaha I'll just bear with her scoldings.

I could get used to this :)

Sanosuke~~

I've finished sanosuke's route and it was... Dreamy :)) was of course attracted to yusa's voice ohoho. Initially I thought he was the flirty guy which every otome game is bound to have but he's better than that ^_^

This really surprised me. I would have thought all the guys of shinsengumi were passionate about fighting to serve their respective leaders, shogun or not but sanosuke just wants to settle down. My poor baby

Look at this sly guy ^_^

HE KNOWS ;_; I was feeling jealous

The second confession scene was really good, he made it clear that he would choose to stay with Chizuru over fighting alongside his best buddy Nakamura.. Brought a tear to my eye :')

And.... The final CG where they have a baby boy hahaha

Cosfest XII

Cosfest 2013 is over.. The best event I've attended yet-- in terms of the quality, variety and choice of cosplay I saw over the two days and my learning experience. Taking the time off my psp to type a full recount because I want to record the experience down properly.

Initially I had 2 costumes, one for each day of the festival. Was rushing them up to the day before the event before I checked the facebook group post and realised that the Hunter X Hunter team on sunday had been postponed. 

Well.. honestly it was a rather irresponsible of the team leader to not announce the news separately in a new post but I understand that he was caught up in the WCS so all it's ok~ 

Could have saved me a lot of stress though :( because I was really dreading Hisoka and lost sleep trying to rush out his arm bands and styling the hair. I still don't look good for Hisoka, probably the wig's fault :/ At least i'm done for his costume minus the lower arm bands.. might get a new wig too.

So I arrived at the chalet on saturday morning and did up the make up Also helped another team mate with hers yay. It was the first time I did my make up without my big house mirror and I took my own sweet time. I actually messed up on my eyeshadow because I used the wrong colours and used my eyebrow brush for the purple, making my eye make up look darker than I wanted. Lashes went on ok and I didn't put on lower lashes. 

                                                   

I was in full costume when i first set off to the event grounds with part of the team. Could not make it out of the chalet area -_______- it was next to impossible to cover much distance in that mermaid tail. In the end I hobbled back to the chalet and changed back into my shorts. Some team mates were still there and I stayed a while longer to help as much as I could with their costumes and wigs. Then I set off before them because I still needed to change.

When I finally changed into the tail, it attracted an auntie's attention in the toilet.She asked which country I was from, followed me out and literally stared in horror at my inability to walk :(((((((( omg I was drawing stares from everyone along the way not because my cosplay was awesome/beautiful but because I was brisk shuffling. Super embarrassing....

I totally regretted changing into the tail at that toilet because it was still a short distance from the actual place... I miscalculated haha. The funniest thing was that I  bumped into the rest of the team whom I left behind at the chalet and they laughed so loudly when they saw me LOL quite glad they caught up because it was much less embarrassing when I was with them.

My team mates later told me it was the cutest sight to see my curly wig bounce with every shuffle XD I wish I saw it.

Long story short, I had to shuffle in small steps everywhere. When I saw a cosplay I wanted to take photos of, I had to painfully shuffle over and ask for a photo. Thus every photo I took on the first day was the result of my hard work and aching calf muscles. 

I might have been wearing relatively little clothes but boy was it hot... Can only imagine how the rest of the team felt in their wings and gowns OTL

                                     

Took photo with my Sano dono ^^ very nice of her to put her arms around my shoulders without having to ask. Ahhh my fangirl heart XD

             

There was DRAMAtical Murder as well! In total I saw 2 Aoba, 2 Noiz, 1 Clear and 1 Koujaku. I heard there was a hot Mink but didn't see him ;__;

At night I had expensive chicken rice, macs vanilla cone and kfc supper cheese fries wheeee. Also managed to catch the 1st episode of Free! at the chalet. Squealed like nobody's business. I barely had time to watch any anime the past week cos was too busy X_X

                                              

Day2 was relaxing for me. As relaxing as it can get because honestly I could not forget about my lab presentation the next day and I had planned to go home early since I wasn't going to cosplay anyway. The highlight of the day was to see the X team.

It was all I could talk about the night before LOL and I was like: Omy I might see Kamui and my X guys later, what should I wear 8D

Bimbo ttm but yes I was that excited and hopeful.

Was kinda saikang warrioring for yifen and andy as Sakura and Syaoran but I was super distracted, kept looking around in hope of seeing the X team hehe

Needless to say I was extremely disappointed when I didn't see them. Went back to the chalet to get my belongings and returned to the event grounds to return the key to Yifen when I saw the Clover team:

                 

They were swarmed by photogs and I waited patiently until I got to them T______________T was crying tears of happiness in my heart. I told them that I was really happy to see a clover team and that they did a great job. Then I saw more members of the Clover team and I was clutching at my chest to keep my feels at bay.

                  

                 

ASDFGHJKLKLASDKJHASDJHGLAKSDHLASKJDHLAKJSH they recruited a pair of twins to cos A and B. LOVELY i spotted the twins walking around previously and was staring at them because they seemed clamp-like but they were not Kamui and Fuuma so I didn't pursue it. When I saw Sue and Ora, things started falling in place T_____T no idea how to describe my feelings

Finally met Yifen to pass the keys and when I went to check on the clover team again, my dream came true.. 

I saw a pair of figures clad in red jackets and holding swords. 

I ran up to them and made eye contact with Kamui. He has lovely blue eyes.

Fuuma was busy so I took solo shots of Kamui my love. He was really sporting and asked me to wait so he could give me his coscard.

Fuuma walked up, I stared at him and his earring hanging so alluringly from his ear. The only thought which flashed repeatedly through my mind was 'Hot stuff'' 

"Fuuma?"

Fuuma smiled "Ahh yes!"

"I've waited so long for the both of you" T ^T

                                                                         

The last photo below is a bonus, I never intended to take a photo with them because I was already saturated with happiness to see them and take photos. Also I was dressed down, looked really red/black faced because I was running around, so excited and the weather was boiling. Then Andy asked why I didn't ask for a photo with them and before I could state my reasons, he went up to them, leaving me gaping and flailing my hands at his retreating back. I didn't know what he said but Kamui and Fuuma turned to smile at me. Everything was a blur, I found out that Fuuma was from Australia though. Before we could take a photo, Fuuma had to answer a call, then Kamui received a call too so I was standing between them blushing hahaha and then this :))

Fuuma also had his arm around my shoulders though you can't see it here ^_________^ this photo really made my day, or possibly even my week. It's now my iphone lock screen.

I received both their coscards. Was really paiseh that I didn't have one to exchange. Should really consider making one hmm.. Never thought that this day would come ahaha it's a good thing I guess!

After I left, KaiLin sent me a photo of another X team, the one I was waiting for. I regretted leaving early of course but just seeing the photo above put me in an unbelievably good mood again. I will settle for photos ^^

Ending off with a loving photo of Yifen and Andy ~~

In all, cosfest XII with the CCS team was a great experience! I was hesitant when I agreed to join this group, mostly because I was not interested in the character nor the series but I agreed in the end because I knew that I would learn a lot from being in such a big team with many excellent cosplayers. I was right :'D