Little things

Right from the start I had planned to get those tubes sold in aquariums for Vanille's necklace. I decided not to procrastinate and went to get them on my way home this evening..

Was nearing the row of fish shops when I saw the rows of fish tanks and caught a whiff of the fishy smell and I literally broke out in cold sweat. Even the fallen leaves on the floor gave me a scare because I was so afraid they were dead fish X_______X

Walked past the shops twice and couldn't bring myself to go any closer T_____T I had been worried that the tubes would be expensive or that the shop wouldn't have tubes the right thickness but it never occurred to me that I would be unable to enter the shop. I guess in a way it means I'm getting over my fear, or becoming less conscious about it. But ultimately it's still there aiyo ym you think you superwoman issit.. suddenly not afraid of fish anymore.

I told him that I was scared and he offered to go to the aquarium shop with me T ^T I don't think he understands how much it means to me but that's it, the line "Tomorrow I go with you" got me 100% sold. 

Still I didn't want to wait another day so I looked hard and luckily for me, one shop had some tubes displayed at the area I was loitering and I managed to get close to perfect tubes :D so proud of myself.

It's been 4.5 months since we got together and there was this period where I realised there were major problems that I was going to have to talk to him about. But before I got around to talking about them, he initiated changes which showed that he was aware and put me back at ease. I still get jealous easily which is something I've never told him about hehe and I still worry about lots of small stuff but I think it's because I don't know him well enough to feel secure. And that's why I don't think he'll be meeting you all any time soon lah, still too early. We have time :)

I like how he always turns over to face me when he's standing in front of me on the escalator. On the other hand I always just face forward and not turn back because I'm shy lololol. I like how he always squeezes my hand and lifts it slightly as if he's escorting a princess, like I might trip and fall any moment, or maybe he's worried that I might be stretching my hands too far down since he has longer arms. I like how he refuses to let go when my palms are sweaty and even rubs them on purpose to make them sweaty when they're not (I don't like this okay!!) but yeaaaaa he doesn't mind XDXD my palms are seldom sweaty when I'm with him anyways. I like our still awkward hugs before saying goodbye at the train platform. And I don't like saying goodbye.