Little things

Right from the start I had planned to get those tubes sold in aquariums for Vanille's necklace. I decided not to procrastinate and went to get them on my way home this evening..

Was nearing the row of fish shops when I saw the rows of fish tanks and caught a whiff of the fishy smell and I literally broke out in cold sweat. Even the fallen leaves on the floor gave me a scare because I was so afraid they were dead fish X_______X

Walked past the shops twice and couldn't bring myself to go any closer T_____T I had been worried that the tubes would be expensive or that the shop wouldn't have tubes the right thickness but it never occurred to me that I would be unable to enter the shop. I guess in a way it means I'm getting over my fear, or becoming less conscious about it. But ultimately it's still there aiyo ym you think you superwoman issit.. suddenly not afraid of fish anymore.

I told him that I was scared and he offered to go to the aquarium shop with me T ^T I don't think he understands how much it means to me but that's it, the line "Tomorrow I go with you" got me 100% sold. 

Still I didn't want to wait another day so I looked hard and luckily for me, one shop had some tubes displayed at the area I was loitering and I managed to get close to perfect tubes :D so proud of myself.

It's been 4.5 months since we got together and there was this period where I realised there were major problems that I was going to have to talk to him about. But before I got around to talking about them, he initiated changes which showed that he was aware and put me back at ease. I still get jealous easily which is something I've never told him about hehe and I still worry about lots of small stuff but I think it's because I don't know him well enough to feel secure. And that's why I don't think he'll be meeting you all any time soon lah, still too early. We have time :)

I like how he always turns over to face me when he's standing in front of me on the escalator. On the other hand I always just face forward and not turn back because I'm shy lololol. I like how he always squeezes my hand and lifts it slightly as if he's escorting a princess, like I might trip and fall any moment, or maybe he's worried that I might be stretching my hands too far down since he has longer arms. I like how he refuses to let go when my palms are sweaty and even rubs them on purpose to make them sweaty when they're not (I don't like this okay!!) but yeaaaaa he doesn't mind XDXD my palms are seldom sweaty when I'm with him anyways. I like our still awkward hugs before saying goodbye at the train platform. And I don't like saying goodbye.

This weekend

Met up with the Yyys for afternoon tea on saturday!!!!! So happy to see Janice and listen to tales of horror hahaha our meetups are always so fun and gossipy. We must meet again before you fly off okay!!!

 

I've been looking for a pair of sandals for a while, something more formal than flip flops and can withstand plodding through the rain. I fell in love with this pair and bought it after showing my mum ehehe i'm such a mummy's girl. Firstly I'm pleasantly surprised she knows how to use whatssap ^__^ and secondly she went 'haha' on me hahahaha so cute

So I happily told the bf that I bought new shoes and he wanted to see it. I sent this and asked about how his tuition session went. He totally ignored the photo despite sounding so enthusiastic about seeing it before :/ cheat my feelings only okay can XD

I will make significant progress for Vanille this coming week I promise myself. The start of 'significant progress': 

I hope to discover an easier and less messy way of painting my beads. My fingers are also stained blue and I can't remove the colour X_______X

Crazy week

It has been such an erratic week I've fallen sick again.. Maybe it's also because I shared dessert with him who's recovering from a cough when we met up with his group and told them about us. They were all shocked wahahaha. We watched ju-on and it wasn't scary for me, his reactions on the other hand were more entertaining than the movie XD

Started feeling sick on Friday so I went down to the event rather late on Saturday, actually just to see him cosplay a main character (for once not a masked guy or old man) then left after dinner to attend a friend's CO concert. I was dying of exhaustion already. 

Mum kept scolding me for packing my schedule so tightly but no choice... The quartet always has very little time to prac for the gigs. I agreed to go for the sound check from 12-1pm on Sunday despite it being the event day, thinking that I'll have time to prep in the morning and after the sound check. To my horror they squeezed in a practice session at 9am. I was dying from the onset of a cold but forced myself to get out of bed at 8am and do my base +eye make up... 

Was super sway and felt my period come while I was walking to the car to go school omg..... Had to sit sideways during the ride cos my pants were of all colours, white OTL went straight to toilet when I reached and sent an SOS to my cosplay partner to bring more pads and a pair of shorts for me. 

My make up for Sunday was alright but I had so little energy T__T didn't get the feel for the character, which was pointed out by 2 people... I will work harder and do better for the shoot and next event!!!! Rawrrrrr. 

Sunday was still fun XD he went back to cosing side characters. The Sunday character suits him a lot hahaha this ex-gangster cyclist who has a trademark scowl. I'll never be able to pull characters like these off. It makes me miss him much more when we're at the same place but not interacting with each other. I was just trying not to stick to him during dinner so he can talk and play around with his crazy group of friends. He mentioned before that he wants me to cling to him when we are with his group but.... Don't want leh.. I might have overdone it because I just stuck with the girls throughout the long walk back to the mrt even though he came by a few times hahaha

Monday morning I had to go school early for the performance at 10am and 3pm. The 10am freshies were much more enthusiastic than the afternoon batch haha. I was next to lifeless by 2pm and so the 3pm performance was quite bad actually oops, in addition to the quiet crowd. 

Looking forward to meeting the yyyys this week!! Janice!!!! I mish you!!

Hello guys

Bleh bleh bleh the cloth is so pretty but so much work T____T Hands down the toughest character I've taken on I believe. 

Started with the most easy part-- her side pouch. 1st attempt was nerve wrecking because I sewed the bias tape wrongly on one side and only realised when I got to the bottom. The sides were nice and straight but CMI even by my standards. I made another one the next day.

 

Had my eyes on the gelpresso liners by Clio for a long while, but the full size stick is too costly. Saw the 5 mini sticks pack selling for $25..... contemplated for 2 days... Then I bought them XD The limited edition pack has shinier and brighter colours and I'm soooo tempted but nope. -breathe in- self control -breathe out-. 

When it comes to daiso eyelashes though........... I am not as strong because they're cheap, and I need non-criss cross lashes for male coses anyway. Daiso has been stocking up on some really pretty lashes which I think will look really natural and are comfy as well. It's too bad I prefer dramatic lashes to natural looking ones since I only wear them for cosplay. Please let me try my stash of eyelashes on you don't be shy. I have roughly an A4 size tote bag full of them.

My nails last week, already removed in preparation for next sunday though

Another busy week

Had a mini grad shoot, went for a friend's business talk, went friend's house to get costume, arranged a song for the racial harmony performance tomorrow OAO, saxophone prac 2 days in a row, went for a surprise birthday party, tuition. 

Long story short, we were supposed to remind our prof to attend the ceremony but the lab senior we informed maybe forgot to pass the message down? Still our fault anyways and we felt super guilty when prof wasn't present during the ceremony. He also mentioned beforehand that he wants a photo of us. Since all the photos we took during the ceremony were cramped with lots of undesired background, we met up on tuesday to take a proper photo and print it out. 

The sun was so hot that day I was squinting in more than half the shots, even in the selfie haha our throwing cap shots were rubbish LOL very funny rubbish but how do people take those shots while still looking decent? We were all over the place chasing our caps. 

Wednesday I went to K's house. I thought she wanted help with her report but she had already submitted it on monday! So I was just there to collect my costume and play play hahaha

My lunch. It tasted not bad and looked so pretty in the red bowl, I couldn't resist taking a photo.

Guys guys this is my wish come true. I've been wanting to cos a baseball series since I started cosplaying because I love Ookiku Furikabutte. Squealed non stop while trying on the jersey. Trimmed K's wig + my own. I can't wait to cos him!! Aug 3rd EOY here I come! Speaking of events, the second half of the year is choke full of events. I'm busy every single weekend OTL Just accepted another cos for september. I don't even know if I can finish her stuff in time..

Tried my hand at arranging a song for the first time. I had a little problem with the software but it was quite easy to use actually, just that I wrote the diff instrument parts separately and had to cross refer non stop , on top of the transposition confusion OTL It was even more stressful because I had so little time. The final scores turned out not as bad as I imagined hahaha feels good to hear the quartet play my arrangement. Performing at a primary school assembly on monday! I'm hopeful it'll be better than the pjc performance :D

Met up with him after prac on friday and had lunch + walk around clementi mall and west mall before meeting up with the rest for the birthday surprise. While at clementi, bumped into a band mate oops. Dunno leh, there's nothing to hide but at the same time we're hesitant about telling people. He said he wants to tell his group, but I wanted to talk to him properly about this whole thing before telling more ppl, so that was that. -_- but whenever we meet up we're just like floating around in happiness or sth and always never talk about serious stuff. This week I'll definitely talk to him about it.

So when we met up with our group-- people I'm more comfortable with, we walked off to get some snacks and again he said that it's okay if they see us holding hands. I was like 'okay'. But I chickened out when walking back -bish bish myself- I was too shy, and it just felt strange to let people know in this manner. Aiya I shouldn't think so much

Graduation and a really busy week

I've graduated!! The ceremony was more entertaining than I thought, wearing the gown was warmer than I imagined and it was so crowded OTL I could sense that my mum was delighted and proud hahaha my dad looks blur as usual and he didn't say much but I still love you papa. 

LOVELY FLOWERS from my parents and my band friends. It's the first time I receive such a huge bouquet of flowers, and also the NUS science bear bear which is so adorable I hug him every morning. My friends must have spent so much on these T ^T thank you so much I will treasure them all. Hoping to dry the flowers and keep them in the bouquet but I have no idea how??????? 

I thought I had a proper closure with someone but a well meaning friend told me that he hasn't given up... Seeing him look so nervous and happy to congratulate me on graduation day..... I feel really terrible. I just wish there's a painless way for him to move on.

The sax performance at pjc was okay only blehhhh I was extra stressed cos there was a brass quintet performing after us and they were sitting in during our performance. Aiya..... I kept thinking I was the noobiest player (which is true, just that it bothered me alot more since other good players were watching) and felt so so so self conscious. As a result, I missed more notes than I would have. And my low notes were flat flat flat omg.... I promise the next school gig will be better. T_T

Went out with lab mates yesterday to hunt for a birthday present and I ended up getting this pair of fake diamond earrings HAHA I wore my mum's pair of real diamond earrings for a bit after forcing my ear holes open and she got quite naggy after spotting them carelessly left on my table OTL so I got my own pair. They're cheap.... given how shiny and pretty the crystals are. And comfortable to sleep in so I'll keep them on all the time (Y)

The first time I'm posting photos of us up on the blog.. I've half a mind to make this blog private.. but we'll see how. 

Our selfies so far! Everytime I see these photos I start laughing XDXD especially the middle one because it's really lao ah pek

I'm graduating today! 

Been so tired lately but I can't fall asleep when I'm in bed :( usually I drop off within 10 minutes but since last week I've been just tossing and turning and sleeping so lightly at night. I might be too excited over recent events XD Relatives came last thursday and I was the tour guide,  went shopping everyday, visited gardens by the bay and it's lovely as usual. 

Of course the highlight was Cosfest last weekend and I had so much fun!!!! Though it's the first time I attend cosfest without cosing.... Abit sad :( Helped the dw team on saturday and slept over at the chalet (slept badly), helped M&M with moving props for the competition and stayed for the bbq at night though the original plan was to return home to have dinner with relatives. Both days he cosed ah pek characters LOL it's super funny to see the photos and selfies. I had dinner with him yesterday and we walked many rounds inside west gate, jem and Jcube. So happy XD

I also got roped into playing for a sax gig this friday during pjc assembly. After a year of not touching the saxophone. I started practicing on tuesday night and oh man I kept lou-ing feng towards the end. Yesterday was better and today I didn't lou feng at all. The actual performance tmr will be good I hope!!!!!!! Only one per part so I got to play well!! Quite stressed though. 

Guys I have let us down, I let him hold my hand during cosfest even though he didn't ask face to face for me to be his gf. It's like 都这样了还要他问就 abit forced lah.

No photos here (all on fb) cos I'm super tired and am going to take a nap now