Because of the dreadful meeting I've been in a poor mood and wasn't able to enjoy cosfest. Vesak day was spent working on the costume and the bf came over too. I couldn't enjoy the process, just full of dread.
Yesterday was fine, I didn't cos and just followed the bf around helping to take care of the bags and stuff.
Today I cosed and met the bf earlier to do his make up. Was already damn sian when I woke up because I couldn't get the meeting out of my head. Went all the way to pasir ris. After he changed, he realised that the number on his jersey was wrong.
This was something which totally could have been avoided. I had offered to cut the numbers to stick on the jersey and being very bad with names, he told me that he wanted to cos the 'angry senpai who has a bone to pick with the protagonist'. My bad for picking up only the angry part and I assumed that it was that particular character with the number 10. Turned out he meant the number 11 character. Which was ironic cos when he was at my house on wednesday, I already pointed out that he has the wig for number 11 but he wanted to cos 'the angry one' which number 10 is known for. The miscom might have already started there and seriously fish this sh1t and next time just tell me the name like WTF. On friday after I told him I'm cutting out 10, he just told me ' i dont know' like wth he couldn't verify. What is with this attitude. I wasn't angry then neither was I that angry when we found out this afternoon, but I was trying to tell him that we could have totally avoided this.
He fishing raised his voice at me and told me to stop talking about it. DAMN ANGRY. Still got to fishing do his make up after that.
Then yuhsuan told us the good news on whatssap, i'm very happy for you and very touched also :') But back to the actual situation. I told csy that F1 proposed already, not like someone who scolded me and I stormed off. Damn angry serious, like happy and angry at the same time. Then I went to the toilet to look at the whatssap chat and photos and cry for a while.
I ignored the bf the whole afternoon. When leaving, I totally just tapped in the mrt without looking back because all the guy could say towards the end of the day was along the lines of 'go home' (he was going home for dinner). It's not the first time he does this (talk about going home very happily) and I always feel sian because it sounds like he's just thinking about going home when he's with me. Am I such bad company I really don't care already. Super sad and angry. I'm like crying as I type this post. If you look at the selfie he took with me in costume today, I totally gave a fake smile, like wth you just raised your voice at me 10 mins ago. Now you want to pretend nothing happen and take photo with me. Seriously.
I know it's probably that damned presentation tomorrow and I will be ok after that.